just existing
For as long as I can remember I have just existed I have never been anyone favorite person pretty sure my parents don't even like me most the time. I have spent the most of my life trying to earn someone's love because being me was never enough. Pretty sure that all started in high school When my parents got divorced and my life turned upside down. I lost the house I grew up in, I Lost my step dad who for as long as I can remember is my dad. My 2 step sisters who I spent the last 10 plus years with everyday were now strangers who I saw every now and then in the hallways at school. I remember feeling pain that I never new existed I remember one day while sitting in our new apartment (which I hated) watching girl interrupted and she drank a 1/5 of vodka and followed it with a bottle of Advil. I was young and dumb and with what I know now its not gonna do anything but give me a really bad hangover in the morning and I'll spend a lot of time hanging out around the toilet. What...